This poem was written and shared with permission of Café member, Q. Click here to read Q’s Member Moment.
On days like this I think about all the things I could be
I choose to be happy
On days like this I think about all the accessories I could be wearing
I choose to wear a smile
On day like this I think about all the names I can call myself
I say grateful, worthy, I say still here
On days like this my mind, body, and spirit turns into a 3 piece band and they’re playing all their greatest hits
Like joy and laughter and letting go of anything that doesn’t make me the best version of myself
I’ll be honest I don’t know much
But I know a few things about a broken heart it’s probably one of the worst injuries to have it happens to us all and luckily it doesn’t last forever
I know a few things about revenge it doesn’t change what already happened and it won’t make the pain go away
Revenge is like starving yourself while making a plate for someone else who is not hungry
It’s like holding your breath and hoping somehow all your enemies run out of oxygen
I know a few things about forgiving
It’s harder then it looks but it feels better than it sounds
I heard while leaving Sodom Lot’s wife wanted to see what was happening turned around and was transformed into a pillar of salt
I know a few things about leaving
If you take too much time packing your stuff you’ll convince yourself to stay longer than you planned
When you finally do it you can’t look back
I know a few things about healing
It’s not a good employee
It shows up when it’s ready only works when it wants to
I know a few things about self care
It’s not as fancy as it looks on instagram
Sometimes it looks like drinking a glass of water
Sometimes it looks like laying down
Sometimes it looks like putting on your favorite song and dancing like the room is on fire
But you are a ice cube that refuses to melt
I know a few things about my body
It is the only one I have and it becomes everything that I say it is
My body doesn’t like to raise its voice
My body doesn’t like to ask me more than once to rest and if I don’t listen it will go on strike when I need it the most
I know a few things about my mind
It’s the most powerful tool I own
If I say I am then I will be
All my success begins with what I believe about myself
I know a few things about my spirit
It’s not something I can point to or drew a picture of but I know that it’s there
I can feel it when I breathe
It holds me together on days when I feel like I’m falling apart
I know a few things about life
Being human is difficult
Being a good human is even harder
But it’s still something I want to accomplish while I’m here
I know a few things about me
I hate pickles
I think spiders are terrifying
and I made a lot of mistakes
But I know a few things about tomorrow
It’s kinda like a shadow it’s hard to see when sun isn’t bright regardless it’s there
Like the moon and the stars
Some days I look up at the night sky and am reminded that people and planets aren’t so different
We all have an orbit our energy decides who we let into our atmosphere
We have our own gravity